A much needed update...................

So I signed up for a very necessary 3 x a week personal trainer at the gym. He's kicking my tooshy and I'm loving it!! He told me to stop obsessing about my intake and weight. He said I can't weigh for a month. He's talking to the wrong girl! We'll see how that goes................
So every time I leave the gym I'm soaking wet and thrilled at the progress. This poor guy doesn't know what he's got himself into. There is a large amount of whining and a moderate amount of cussing but he continues to stay positive and motivate me.
I'm currently committed to 3 days of cardio a week and 3 days of weight training. I'll keep you posted!

Yesterday.................

I don't think I can remember everything I ate yesterday but I can remember that it included 5 Mothers brand toffee cookies. Someone brought them to work so they wouldn't eat them. I can say that I am definitely a team player! I really helped her out. Needless to say I was 180 this morning. It gave me the drive I needed to get it together.
Noon - a cup of tomato soup and an apple
1615 - half a chicken enchilada with corn tortilla (Nellie size portion) and 4 Andes mints
1900 - a bowl of multi-grain Cheerios
I also had an appointment with my trainer at the gym at 1500. It was obvious I didn't eat enough prior to the gym as I got light headed and shaky. I'm pretty sure that I worked off quite a bit of calories as I was dripping when I left. This guy means business! It's super hard work but I know it will pay off in the end. Tomorrow is cardio day....................... lots of running.

HHHMMM Not so good so far today..........

0545- For breakfast I had golden grams
0930- peanut butter and honey on wheat
1230- cheese burger and half an order of fries (oooooppssss)
1420- a cookie (I think I'd better ride the indoor bike this evening for an hour)

Friday December 11th

I woke up and went to the gym for my 3rd training session. I was pretty sore but knew I had to go. It hurt even more but I always feel better after I go.
1120- tuna melt w/pickles and half a twix
1435- 2 farm house cookies (those of you who know what these are should be impressed that I only ate 2)
1730-.5 cup of clam chowder (minus the nasty clams)
1900- bowl of multigrain Cheerios and 2 Andes mints and an apple

I'm not too sore!

I woke up this morning expecting to be sore from my torturous work out yesterday with the trainer. I'm not too sore. Not too sore at all. Because I rate eveything on the 0-10 scale I'd say I'm a 2/10. Totally ok. I'm off to the gym in about 20 minutes for my second session. Today is the day we measure. AAAHHH! I'm not looking forward to this but I know it's necessary. Tonight is our work Christmas party and there is always tons of yummy foods to try. I'm hoping that the hour I spend at the gym will encourage me to stay away of the bad stuff so my time at the gym isn't wasted.
0630- 177.5 lbs
0700- protein shake and an apple
1030- 2 chocolate mint cookies (they're all gone now thankfully)
1120- a chocolate/peanut butter protein shake
It's 1130 I'm off to the gym!
1300- a bowl of white chicken chili/a bowl of taco salad w/o meat
1930- pumpkin mouse dessert and a kahlua w/cream

Such a better day!

So yesterday was a complete disappointment. I was determined to keep on track today.
0639-large bowl of raisin bran crunch
1230-a skinny venti frapachino w/o coffee
1530-half a cup of tomato soup and a mint chocolate chip cookie
1830-finished the tomato soup and added about 20 gold fish crackers
2100-2 chocolate mint cookies

I 'm done for the day. I'd say there is not a single nutritional item in there. HHmmmm .......... well at least there is significantly fewer calories then yesterday.
Today I made a HUGE commitment. I had my first appointment with a personal trainer at the gym. Holy crap that's scary!! They basically tell you how fat and out of shape you are then say that they can make you all better with just a few simple exercises. RRIIIGGHHHTTT! If that's all it took I wouldn't look like this. He asked me my hobbies and I think he was quite surprised by my response............. "EATING" I said. You can't tell? I wasn't kidding. I love to eat. So he took my weight and calculated my BMI (body mass index) then told me what it should be. OUCH. I have to drop my BMI in half. Is that even possible? Well I'll give it a whirl. He then took me to the exercise machine and kicked my hiney. I may not be able to walk tomorrow which is good because then I can't get to the kitchen for food! I signed up for 3 private sessions a week FOR A YEAR. Yes, you read that correct. A YEAR! I need the help. I need the drive. I'm super excited. We'll see how long that lasts. Tomorrow he's taking my measurements. Won't that be fun!

2200-Because I'm honest.................... I just ate 2 Andes mints and 1 oz. of chili cheese freetos :(

Sometimes things just go bad....................

So yesterday morning we had a potluck at work. I took scrambled eggs and sausage and orange juice. Other things at the potluck were
*cheesy potatoes
*scones
*fruit salad
*glazed doughnut holes
*cinnamon rolls
*french toast casserole
I mention this because I completely fell off the deep end. I started with a positive attitude telling myself that I would stick to the scrambled eggs and fruit salad. The truth is the scrambled eggs and fruit salad never even his my plate. I started out with 2 doughnut holes, a large scoop of cheesy potatoes and some sausage. The meeting went on for 2.5 hours and in that time I consumed enough calories for 3 days. I actually lost track of how much I ate.
Later that day things got worse. I think I gave up by the afternoon. I can't possibly name everything but I would like to mention a few ........................ a twix, a bite of snickers and a piece of lasagna.
Super frustrating. Super gross. Super chubby that evening. I seriously didn't want to get on the scale this morning but I did because I said I would. 180 lbs. What a disappointment. At least it gave me the drive to do better the next day. Something good had to come out of it.

Day 2 So far so good!

12/08/2009-177 lbs

0610-bowl of raisen bran crunch with 1% milk

0830-apple with caramel dip/2 mini pb cups

1120-1/3 of a breakfast burrito

1320-hand full of cashews

1640-turkey wrap w/veggies 1/2 cup soup

Heres where things get bad.................

1845-I had about 1-1.5 cups of peanut m and m's and 2 mini cinnabons

1945-a piece of lasagna

A bit excessive I know!

So I went to the gym and did 7 miles to counteract my pathetic intake.

Looking forward to my morning weigh-in.