Such a better day!

So yesterday was a complete disappointment. I was determined to keep on track today.
0639-large bowl of raisin bran crunch
1230-a skinny venti frapachino w/o coffee
1530-half a cup of tomato soup and a mint chocolate chip cookie
1830-finished the tomato soup and added about 20 gold fish crackers
2100-2 chocolate mint cookies

I 'm done for the day. I'd say there is not a single nutritional item in there. HHmmmm .......... well at least there is significantly fewer calories then yesterday.
Today I made a HUGE commitment. I had my first appointment with a personal trainer at the gym. Holy crap that's scary!! They basically tell you how fat and out of shape you are then say that they can make you all better with just a few simple exercises. RRIIIGGHHHTTT! If that's all it took I wouldn't look like this. He asked me my hobbies and I think he was quite surprised by my response............. "EATING" I said. You can't tell? I wasn't kidding. I love to eat. So he took my weight and calculated my BMI (body mass index) then told me what it should be. OUCH. I have to drop my BMI in half. Is that even possible? Well I'll give it a whirl. He then took me to the exercise machine and kicked my hiney. I may not be able to walk tomorrow which is good because then I can't get to the kitchen for food! I signed up for 3 private sessions a week FOR A YEAR. Yes, you read that correct. A YEAR! I need the help. I need the drive. I'm super excited. We'll see how long that lasts. Tomorrow he's taking my measurements. Won't that be fun!

2200-Because I'm honest.................... I just ate 2 Andes mints and 1 oz. of chili cheese freetos :(

Sometimes things just go bad....................

So yesterday morning we had a potluck at work. I took scrambled eggs and sausage and orange juice. Other things at the potluck were
*cheesy potatoes
*scones
*fruit salad
*glazed doughnut holes
*cinnamon rolls
*french toast casserole
I mention this because I completely fell off the deep end. I started with a positive attitude telling myself that I would stick to the scrambled eggs and fruit salad. The truth is the scrambled eggs and fruit salad never even his my plate. I started out with 2 doughnut holes, a large scoop of cheesy potatoes and some sausage. The meeting went on for 2.5 hours and in that time I consumed enough calories for 3 days. I actually lost track of how much I ate.
Later that day things got worse. I think I gave up by the afternoon. I can't possibly name everything but I would like to mention a few ........................ a twix, a bite of snickers and a piece of lasagna.
Super frustrating. Super gross. Super chubby that evening. I seriously didn't want to get on the scale this morning but I did because I said I would. 180 lbs. What a disappointment. At least it gave me the drive to do better the next day. Something good had to come out of it.

Day 2 So far so good!

12/08/2009-177 lbs

0610-bowl of raisen bran crunch with 1% milk

0830-apple with caramel dip/2 mini pb cups

1120-1/3 of a breakfast burrito

1320-hand full of cashews

1640-turkey wrap w/veggies 1/2 cup soup

Heres where things get bad.................

1845-I had about 1-1.5 cups of peanut m and m's and 2 mini cinnabons

1945-a piece of lasagna

A bit excessive I know!

So I went to the gym and did 7 miles to counteract my pathetic intake.

Looking forward to my morning weigh-in.

OK Heidi! Here it goes........................

I was explaining to Heidi a couple of nights ago that if I'm accountable to others is seems to motivate me. I signed up for the Hood to Coast relay in August of 2008. I knew that I would have to train and do well because I couldn't let my team down. I ran the Hood to Coast in Aug of 2009 and had a blast. As most of you know, I have lost a bit of weight. I'm struggling to lose the last 15 lbs. My addiction to food seems to somehow over ride my desire to lose weight. With that said; I've learned that the most important part of my weight loss is exercise. I already know I'm not strong enough to say no to my favorite foods. I can only counteract the food with exercise. I'm going to follow this 10K training program. I will personalize it and make a few modifications to fit my schedule but ultimately I am training for a 10k. Go to http://www.halhigdon.com/10ktraining/10knovice.htm to follow along. I'm going to be accountable! I'm going to be accountable to everyone who reads this blog. Every day (with the exception of fruits and veggies because I count them as free), I will post what I ate for the day, how much exercise I did, and my weight. AAAHHHHH! If this doesn't motivate me I don't know what will. I weigh first thing every morning. I'll record my intake for the day then post it on the blog in the evening. Please feel free to send out MMOOOO sounds if I eat an entire box of cereal or 3 pounds of moms Christmas candy. I'm going to trial this for 2 weeks. Best case scenario, it keeps me on track. Worst case scenario, my food addiction takes over and I am embarrassed to post my intake!

LET THE GAMES BEGIN !!

My work days can be difficult because they are 12.5 hrs long and I often only get a 30 minute break which can lead to a lot of snacking. I'm going to focus on making sure I'm hungry before I reach for a snack. We'll see how it goes.........

12/07/2009-178 lbs

0610-bowl of multi-grain cheerios w/1% milk

0845-protein bar with 30g protein

1050-hand full of cashews

1330-turkey wrap with lots of veggies and a hard boiled egg

1630-1 mini peanut butter cup/3 Swedish fish/chocolate chip cookie

1845-3 miles at the gym 300 cals burned

1945-1/2 turkey wrap with veggies

2105-3 Andes mints

I will say that knowing that I have to be accountable for everything I eat certainly makes me think twice. I wanted to come home from work and eat a Costco size bag of Cheetos but I didn't because I didn't want to admit it.

Nelson's first day of preschool

Today was Nelson's first day of school. She was very excited all morning. When we got to the school she was a bit nervous. The room was filled with lots of parents and kids and a little loud. She instantly spotted the paints and her teacher helped her put on a smock so she could paint a picture.

Logan is or favorite neighbor. He's in the 4 year old class that is right next to Nellie's class. She felt better knowing that Logan was there. I wasn't sure what to do with myself for 2.5 hours. It was the most productive 2.5 hours I've had in a long time. I did find it hard to leave her but I knew she was in good hands!

Nelson is 2!

We had a party yesterday to celebrate Nellie's second birthday! She's growing too fast. Nelson loves horses, so my friend Rachelle made this awesome cake. We had nachos too.

Nellie opened her presents.

Then, we headed outside for a surprise. Queeny the horse came! As you might know, Nelson loves horses. She always asks to see them or to ride them. First, she fed Queeny.

And, she petted Queeny.

Then, she got to ride Queeny.

Check out that smile!

Shayne took a short ride too. Well, kind of.

Drew loved Queeny almost as much as Nelson did.

For more pics and details, visit my sister's blog.

There's a lot of nakedness in our house...........

This evening I said to Nellie "let's go upstairs and take a bath." She took off towards the stairs and I got side tracked loading the dishes. When she came back to the living room she had taken everything off, had my purse in one hand, keys in the other and my flip-flops on and said "let's go bye bye!" She cracks me up.

The next picture is from a couple of days ago. She was wearing her swimsuit and said she was going to go wash her hands in the bathroom. When I went to check on her this is what I found. She really likes to be naked. If I didn't think she'd pee on the floor I'd let her run around that way.

Nelson's first dental visit

Today Nelson had her fist visit to the dentist. She went to a place called Adventure Dental. Its really cute and made Nelson comfortable. She sat in the chair like a big girl and had her teeth cleaned and then even had x-rays taken. We are so proud of her. She got a report card at the end o her visit. She got an "A". They said Nelson had beautiful teeth and great oral hygiene! Yeah mommy and daddy! Next we are going to start potty training!